Its when :)

The best relationship is when you two can act like lovers and bestfriends.
Its when you have more playful moments than serious moments.
Its when you can joke around, have unexpected hugs and random kisses.
Its when you two give each other that specific stare and just smile :)
Its when you will rather chill inside to watch movies, eat junk foods, and cuddle than go out all the time. Its when you'll stay up all night just to settle your arguments and problems. Its when you can completely act yourself and they can still love you for who you are.

Have you ever..

Have you ever
Laid on your bed all night and just cried?
Cried because you're ugly. Because you're not good enough.
You counted all you flaws from head to toe to punish and feel worse about yourself.
Cried because the comments people blurt out, actually hurt your feelings, cried because your family is dysfunctional, but you're just a kid who cant do shit about it, they tell you to stop complaining, that you have it much better than the kids in Africa?
You dont want to be burden, so you bottle it all up.
Around people, you're the happiest ray of sunshine,
but nobody knows, that at night when you're alone, you break down and just cry :')

Terrified.

When you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart, its the hardest feelings you could ever go through and no matter how much time has passes, it never really goes away. You may think you're getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest, you fall apart, for the hundredth time and you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. You love this person with all your heart, even though you know you should not. They hurt you worse than you've ever been hurt, they stole your happiness but yet, you still want them and only them. Other people come along and give you chances to move on, but you know you dont want to. It upsets you that you might be moving on, because you promised you never would and even if they broke all their promises, you want to keep yours. On top of that, you're terrified.. terrified of getting hurt again. but its not like it matters anyway, at the end of the day you are still thinking about the person who has left you completely broken. You dont want to miss them anymore, you dont want to love them anymore, but you know you always will.

Its okay :s

"Its okay"
I have the tendency to always say this when someone apologizes to me. Even when its not okay, I still say it. Why? Because I dont want to push the situation further and further. I dont want to make it worse than it has to be. but you know what? Its not okay. what you did, its not okay and Im not gonna pretend that it is anymore. I know that sometimes its best to forgive and forget, but sometimes maybe its best to just forget.

Self motivation.

Dear sister in Islam..
We know its hard. We know you look at the pictures of the models and the celebrities and wonder why you cant look like them? We know it hurts to sometimes refrain yourself from plucking those brows or to put on that hijab and abaya.

We know it gets hard to walk outside with no make up on, with your natural face, thinking its not good enough and all of your flaws are showing. You know what else we know? We know you're beautiful, regardless of yourself.

We know that even the slightest inclination of pleasing Allah in yourself increases that beauty ten-fold and we know that when Allah finds you beautiful, its all that matters. You're not doing this for the world, remember? You're not even doing it for yourself :)

Imagine your beauty on the Day of Qiyamah (day of judgement) when your face would be glowing and radiant with noor (light), when you would enter Jannah (heaven) and be more beautiful than the hoor and you would realize that it was this world really wasnt worth the drool.

With Love.