Im sorry

My stupid mouth has got me into trouble again :/

I got a friend and I dont have to mention his name here and making all things being expose. He's a guy, he's not more than a friend. Kami kenal lama, Im happy to have him as my friend. Tadi kami chat and my phone was running out of battery so aku inda charging and I didnt contact Bolhie dari tadi patang after ea offline. Pastu kami cerita cerita, have a long chat. Kami ketawa apa, making jokes, begila and then suddenly things went wrong..

Semua ne salahku. Ea macam mad berabis but he didnt show it to me. He told me how embarassing he was. He asked me if i got anything else to say and he gave me that kinda weird look. Kami baru saja beibun then kami kelaie. Seriously aku blank time tu, aku inda tau apa kan cakap.

I know its my fault tapi aku cuma mampu text sorry saja. Im speechless! Ea kata ea malu kan kelaie pasal hal remeh ne tapi malu jua kalau dibiarkan. He's trapped. :'/ Because of me! He felt like a male bitch and whatsoever it is.

Aku macam sober and I felt really guilty. I didnt mean to hurt him like that. Kami inda pernah kelaie sampai ani and then things changed so quickly! Lapastu ea decided to go then I saw his status appear offline. His last text was, menyindir aku and 'Assalamualaikum.' Aku indatau if ea offline straight away or block aku or might be remove aku! Dude, kami kelaie basar. You know how it feels to lose a friend kan.

I didnt save his number in my new cell phone, so aku inda tau cemana kan contact ea. Aku deactivate facebook  and the only way to apologize to him is through online messenger saja. Aku tnggu ea online dari tadi but before atu aku clean up the kitchen. When I look back, he's still not online. Marah lah tu, of course. I know, siapa jua inda marah kana buat cematu.

Now im the one who supposed to fell like a snobie bitch sebab aku buat salah and kau just go like that after kau marahkan aku. Muka ku macam kana umban batu bata, Im trying to smile but I absolutely cant. We shouldnt end up like this pasal hal tu. We still can discuss about it but i dont know.........

Okay, listen to me. Im sorry for what I did before, you know the reason why I did it, though and yeah I messed it all up and we all make mistakes. I had no idea what I was getting myself into but anyways I just wanted to say I really am Sorry!

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Its from Bolhie.........

He thought aku abis credit which is actually aku pnya hp was all timed switch off pasal low bat. He said that he loves me. Im a bit glad <3