Glay :D

Name: Glay
Age: 3 months plus
Colour: Grey and white
Sex: Male


So adorable! :D Hehehe

Because

I waited for so long, then you showed me you were the one..
I gave you my heart right from the very start, so everytime you lied, I knew inside..
I was hurting, I was broken, I stayed so long and so thats why you didnt think that I knew wrong..
Its all because I loved you, I held you, I believed you, you're all what I needed..
You left me a heart ache, how much more could I take?
With every things that made me cry, I still gave you more..
I should've given up when I had enough but I stayed too long,
because I LOVED YOU :')

Shattered

My mood darkened, my day were ruined.. I'm here with my tears falling down, nobody seems to really care. Nobody seems to realize what I've been through..
It's not supposed to be this way, but why..
I used to be smilling although it's hurting me inside but I can't stand this anymore, tears please fall, fall even more. I've been too strong. No more hopes, but you used to light them up again, again.. Where are you now when I needed you the most?
Silent seems to be loud, eyes were burnin, it tells a different story. She's taking a wrong step, try to turn back....
With all the strength she've got, trying the best to not be in pain, she finally take those broken heart and throw. Guess it's the only way to make day grow. Please dont felt sorry, because time's the one who let this go..
It's not because I don't care, its because they don't..
Being in love, yet lonely, still want it so much. It actually make her felt like she's becoming one with other person but now she realized, she's getting near feeling up to bad.

Eyes closed, end up brutally disappointed, more alone than ever..
The hope she'd held on to all those times, shattered.

Hehe

Ive just realized that I only got 2 posts including this for month of June :p
So last monday Ive received my new book from teacher Jenny that I bought on may before a school holiday.
The book is an awsumness!! It have 32 pages with a hardcover and free stickers. Lol
And I never clean up my room until that clean before I read those book. Oh, forgot to mention the title. Its : Redo your room! Now you got the idea. Hahaha
The book gave me inspirations and a big change for my life :p
Because before...
My room is so messy that I havent seen my floor in weeks but I know where everything is. Sort of.
It looks like there was an earthquake in my closet.
My room is like a black hole, things go in, but they never come out. I even had my cup of nestum that already stinks on my side table :p
The best place to find a clean shirt is on my floor.
My stuffs is scattered behind my bed, in my drawers and under my rug.
I do homework on bed because my desk is piled high with papers and
My bookshelf is more of a "Stuff" shelf. Hahaha

I really need some serious organizational help and with that book, I got some tips on how to either get or keep my room in tip top shape.
Uh oh! I love my new bedroom now :)

:)

Us: Raifa, Qaah, Fithri, Esaf.

Yesterday was a great day, I spend most of my time with my girls at Bandar. We were first headed to Giant Rimba to have our at the Kfc. Thanks to Esaf for treating us that day. Her aunty was the one who's picking us up and we're all agree to stay at Esaf's crib for awhile, having a little chit chat, awesome conversations and some preeeettttty good gossips :p

After that, we went to the Mangrove resort which Ive never been there before. It was such a very wonderful place to go. The river view is super amazing too :)

I reached home at 6pm, hit the shower and texted and sleep.
I didnt even do my revisions that night. but I only look through some of the notes because Im decided to read it in the next morning before Im having my exams. (Not good, naa aa)
PS/   Thanks guys. A day spend with you all is a very well spend :)
Rated : ♥♥♥♥♥

Exam is almost over!

Heya! Its been a while now. I really miss blogging! :(
So look, there are 5 exam papers left which is Maths 2, Commerce 1, 3 & Art 1, 2
Well Im looking forward for it. Cant wait to have my holiday and I can then have my break! Exam is going to be over, pretty soon :D :D :D :D
Maths 1 is a crap. I got 7 questions blank. English 1 scares me. I had no idea what I was writting about. It all messed up like this = has had have.
Ugama was pretty much easy for me, I almost wrote my last answer for a page cause the mark given was 20 for a single question at section B. So I dont wanna miss a chance.
We were having Ugama 2 just now and I dont want to mention more about it. You-know-why
So Ive been through a lot of suffer. Sleepless night and maximum exhaustion for this 2 weeks straight. Major headache that come and go. Ergh!
I admit, I didnt concentrate doing all my revisions especially on science and maths cause I dislike them so much but Ive tried my best to score marks and satisfy my parents 'wants'. Just didnt want to expect too high on it because I didnt want to end up having my papers back with low rated marks.
Well, all the best for me anyway :)

Im going GaGa

Oh na-na whats my name. Dat ti dat ti dat ti dat Dat Dat!

Im currently feeling nervous and I was like 'What the heck!'

We only left less than two weeks to the Prelim 2 Exams :(
Im going GaGa

Perhaps,
I should've stop turning on my computer ever since Prelim 1 ended.

Well, at least Ive started working on my revisions on past year papers.
Which I think I never touch before.
GaGa again.

I think I will not update my blog for a period of time.

But If I got TIME, I will surely update larh :p
Gotta go revise. BLESS ME :D

I LOVE YOU ♥

sorry

Im just tired.

I dont have any motivation to get up in the morning.

I say no to hang out with my friends.

I yell at people who dont deserve it.

I get upset over the stupidest things.

I cry much to often.

Most of the time, I dont understand the things I do.

Mom, dad. Im sorry

I hope you understand why Im so quiet at dinner.

I cant help it, I dont wanna be this way anymore.

It hurts.

 

♥

Everytime I close my eyes, I thank god that Ive got you, and you've got me too. And everytime I think of it, I pinch myself cause I dont believe its true. That someone like you, loves me too! ♥

Sitting next to you doing absolutely nothing, means absolutely everything to me ♥

Its crazy how I automatically smile when I talk to you ♥

There isnt one person in this world that I want more than I want you ♥

You may not be the brightest crayon in the box, but you'll always be my favorite colour, forever ♥

You're the first and the last thought of my everyday ♥

Every girl has their bestfriend, boyfriend and true love. Im lucky because they're all the same person ♥

I'll love you forever, thats the problem ♥

You're one of those people I need in life, I cant stand not talking to you. I think about you all the time ♥

I wish you were here :(

When we first met, I had no idea you would be so important to me ♥

♥

When I first meet you, I never would have imagined that I would have such strong feelings for you and I never would have thought that I would have dreams about you or miss being by your side. When I first meet you, I never would have thought that I would love you.

But now that you're mine, Im so glad that you're mine.

If only I could shout from the rooftops and let the whole world know that you're mine, Imma tell them all that

Im so lucky to have you. You're the most precious thing that has ever happen in my life.

 I love you so much, more than anything ♥

 :)

Her :)

Best girl Ive ever known :D
Lame.Gorgeous.Big laugh.Fun ♥
Haha, candid! :P

"Happy 8th monthsary for
you and Wawan :)"

NurAfiqah Qurratu Aini

Ipad ♥

Say hello to my new Ipad♥ :)

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2Apr

Take today. Today was a very typical, very good day. In the morning, mom drove ourselve in her car, the Junk Bucket. Sorry mom. So off to school and then waved goodbye at her from the front gate. At school, I met up with my girls. We chatted until the bell rang for a first period. We've been told by our class teacher to carry our tables, chairs and other stuffs from 10 Erica to our new class downstairs which is 7 Teratai. I love my new classroom anyway. Everyone did :) So here's some of the arrangement of our sit in the class. Those who are sitting in the middle is sitting on their own, which means single and from right and left are sitting with a partner :)                            _______________

Teacher's Table

___________________

    Fithri          Qaah and me

____________________

     Hana            Ijut and Esaf

At breaktime, I sat with Qaah and Fithri. We always grab the same table. There is nothing like knowing where you're going to sit during break and who you'll sit with. None of that embrassing wandering around with foods, wondering if you'll be welcome at a table of strangers. We picked up practically in the middle of our stories, finishing up a conversation we had started in the morning.

After school, I walked with Qaah to our waiting sit at the back and she went home early before me. The only bad part of this whole wonderful normal day was that at meeting my friends, I couldnt stop thinking about my exams and my friends couldnt stop talking about 'Qaah so called brand of shampoo's and blabla' :p Couldnt anyone talk about anything else? Luckily I change the subject then. We turned our attention back to the *****. Yes, except for that conversation of *****. Today had been a wonderful day. I pretty much knew what to expect from it :p hahaha Jeng Jeng Jeng!

Nikon D90

I was bored so I captured this in my room. Love it! :)

Uhyea

The morning was gloomy and wet and windy. I never minded a day like that though. That was because one of my favorite places in the world was my bedroom. In my room, I could entertain myself for weeks, maybe months with my guitar, Ipad, junk foods and if I had enough art supplies. So the weather didnt bother me.
It didnt bother my little brother, Didi, either. Unlike most of normal eleven-years-old, he will usually read his comics because he liked them. I once heard him say, 'Story books is my world, cartoon feeds my soul' which sounds gross. On this damp late-April, Sunday. I am not happy. Lets skip that one.
A bag of M&M's lay open on my bed, I dont feel like eating, Im losing my appetite and I was trying to concentrate on my exams which is just around the corner and my painting. I was working for art class, but what was really on my mind was my exams!
I needed to work out on my own revisions and notes and I wanted to do it on my own, without outside interference- In other words, without suggestions from my parents.
I was different from everyone else in my family and friends. I mean, I knew everyone was different. That was what grown ups always said, usually to make you feel better about something, but well everyone is different anyway. But I happened to think I was more different from the rest of my family and friends than they were from each other.
Mom and dad were all proper and serious. And then there was me. I do my own things and let them scratching their heads, and I sat in my room and painted, blogging or gave myself new hairstles, taking picture with it while they worked.

I share....

Dad is very protective than mom is. He will probably going to sms me everytime when I hang out with my friends. It will sounds like this.

Please Do takecare of yourself.

Come back home before maghrib.

Eat a proper foods.

and Blablabla!

Love, dad.

Then I will picked up his calls to let him know that I was alive.



Mom is also same as dad but a little bit different. She will leave a note on the table, propped against a glass if I was left alone at home. It read:

1. Eat your breakfast and be sure it includes fruit.

2. Run the washing machine.

3. Take the ground beef out of the freezer so we can have burgers for supper.

Love, Mom.

What is going on with thisssssss! >.<'

So probably after that, I will checked the locks on all our door to make sure no one could sneak up on me while I was in the bathroom or not paying attention. Then I will eat my fruits. Finally, I got around to have my favorite activity: Watching Dc cupcakes on chanel 711 and lived up my barbie dolls on my bed and undressed them.



27Apr

My room was so yellow that sometimes I would lay in bed and feel as if I were drowning in a sunflower. My rug was yellow, my tables around the corner were yellow, the curtains fabric was light yellow and the curtains themselves are not tied back. Sadly, yellow was my least favorite colour. (I liked orange and purple) But my dad had decorated the room for me when I was 14 and that was what he'd thought a little girl would like. Haha, thanks dad.

Right now...
I lay in my bed thought about Rypeen's offer the night before. Am I ready to come during this friday at his cousin's house? Well, I wanted to! I tried to imagine the conversations in which I would ask my father if I could come. "Dad," I would say, "My friend ask me something lastnight.." My dad would look at me and see his girl and say "Yes?" (Instead of yeah?) "What did he ask you?"
"He ask me if i could come at his cousin's house tonight.." At this point, my imagination ground! What I hoped my father would then say was "Great! If you wish honey, just dont come back home late.." But what I was pretty sure he would actually say was "Atul, thats out of the questions! You're not old enough to go out at night, who will look after you there? I dont even know who's you're going to go out with!" Which was a lame arguement for a lawyer to make. *Sighed and rolled over* What should I duuuuuuuuuu? :(

Bored

"School's out, school's out! Teacher wore her bloomers out!"

I probably had nothing to do tonight, nothing. Wonderful, glorious nothing. that is the beauty of homeworks done :p Well, not really nothing. I think I'll watch some dvd's.
Im bored, hmm. So lets talk about the things that poops out from my mind right now. I miss my cousins :( Caylee, Zira and I  had grown up. It was weird to think that 13 years earlier we had all been babies. Our parents were young then. I really miss that moment! Where mom and dad were having their first baby (Which is me) :p Had our parents hang out together and where mom was a singer. We guys have shared tones of memories that will never gonna fade away from my heart. Im the eldest, caylee comes after me and zira was the youngest one. We often meet each other now sometimes and we still walking arms in arms like we used to when we were little. Also hurried hand in hand when we're late for something. Hehe :p

I love you, cousins! :)

Bytheway, mom will be out for a party with dad this saturday and I'll be incharge of my little brothers that night. I guess they can be on their own so I dont really care. She also remind me everything that Ive always heard when she was about to go somewhere.
"Kaka, you know what the emergency numbers are.." Epic Fail!

Hmm, dad~
Fact: Mr Roslan was the strictiest parent Ive ever met but I know my dad has to let me grown up sometime. It would be fun which I cant wait to grow old :(

So now, my mood darkened immediately, I dont know why. My mood was shared by not one single friend or member of my family. All of them seemed happy enough but naah. I just hadnt wanted to think too deeply about my problems. I just ate my dinner and Im full, alhamdulillah. Gotta message my beloved one now. Hehe, later guys!

:)

Its amazing how you always seem to make me smile ♥

I dont ask for much because with you, I have everything I need ♥

He puts that sparkle in her eyes ♥♥♥♥

All my life, ive prayed for someone like you ♥

Past?

I will not forget about the things that everyone have ever did to me in my past, I do forget but Im scared if that things might rewind back against me. I just cant block it out of my mind even in my heart. Its not that easy guys. So please dont ask me not to. CLEAR enough? :')
I need time to get rid of these feelings, there's alot of people who really cares surround me but no one can ever exactly understand. I need time to be alone.. There's no point for me to share about How-I-feel-now with anyone else cause at the end, they cant help me either. How can they help me when I cant even help myself?
:')
 I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now, so how can I be sure about anything? Most of the time I feel so awkward, you know, like I don't belong in my own skin, I get frustrated at everything, I could just scream and there's no reason for it, I just hate myself.
Yes, you will see me smile everyday like nothing bad is happen but its just that Im really good at faking smiles..

26Apr

Guys, G O O D   E V E N I N G !
I just got back home from komplex sukan mumong to watch on my friends netball tournament. It was super cool! Jealous ku liat durang main netball but too bad, aku inda pandai main. Aku ada telanggar one two netball player tadi and I was like tepelanting. Not really that tepelanting but got hit so bad sampai bahu ku sakit. I know it was an accident, inda sengaja but I gotta tell you this, badan durang ah.. Tough wah! Rugged eh and tinggi tinggi :( I wish I was as tall as them.

First game for upper is from Perdana wazir and Chung ching (Not sure about the spelling) Perdana score 12 and chung score 0. Bohoooo! :p

Second game is Perdana wazir and Pjn. Also 12 but pjn score 1 saja.

Third game is the worst :( Perdana wazir Vs Smpap. 5-8. Just 3 points saja lagi but I should be proud of them lah cause they manage to score at least 5. Ive heard that trainer from smpap atu main import. English, she's freakin tall. Intake lama really not that handal but now they've already shown their so call 'kehandalan'.

So tomorrow I'll be watching them lagi lawan Aac and Smsa if im not mistaken. Cant wait! All the best for you guys! :)
And oh, please catch me up on my next post! Hehe :p

I miss u

I kinda miss talking to him everyday like we used to. Talk as friends,  talking about everything and anything all day everyday. Spilling our emotions, talking about our problems., everything. I just miss when we used to talk.. But its different now and it kinda hurts. It still hurts knowing you're so far away.. I wish I could meet and have you now where we would rely on each other but thats so impossible :')

Him

 I love him so much that words cant even tell. When he looks deeply into my eyes, moves forward, and gently kisses me. I can't describe how that makes me feel. Also, whenever he brings me things like gifts, it really makes me feel wonderful.
Whenever he's away, I feel so lonely and I don't know what to do with myself. We hang out almost every day and I don't enjoy hanging out with anyone else, I never do. I wanted to spend every second with him. I feel so bad when he's gone. I feel like if we broke up, my life would have no meaning. I know my age comes into play with this too, and I feel immature about the situation but I just can't help it, Im loving him way too much :')

I was recently asked why I love my boyfriend so much. This simple question stuck in my head and I kept wondering why I love him? I believe there can’t be any reasons to truly love someone. But showing someone how much they mean to you, always brings them closer. I try to sit down and began to jot down few reasons why I love my boyfriend.. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

1. He always put me before himself.
2. He can tell when something is wrong with me.
3. He does things I like, even if he doesn’t like them.
4. He knows how to bring a smile to my face.
5. He patiently listens to all my stories, about the things that happened to me through the day.
6. He makes me feel like to be a better person
7. When he makes the cutest facial expressions :p
8. He respects me.
9. His charm and charisma.
10. His patience with me even if I push him to the limit sometimes.
11. His warm smile.
12. How he always can make me laugh or smile even at times when I don’t want to :p
13. How he can get me out of a bad mood.
14. How he is always concerned about me.
15. How we both get along so well.
16. How we stay up too late talking about nothing.
17. I can be myself when I'm with him.
18. I am always comfortable with him and never awkward.
19. I love how he calls me baby.
20. I love to hear his voice over the phone.
21. Just glancing at each other from far away and we know what each other is thinking :p
22. The way he comforts me when I cry for no reason on the phone.
23.  The little looks he gives me when we are around family and friends.
24. The way he forgives me straight away when I do or say something that makes him angry.
25.  The way he talks.
26. The way his arms feel around me.
27. When we argue about who loves who most.
28. The way he always find me beautiful, even when I look like a clown.
29. The way he hold my hands.
30. His eyes, his lips and his silky hair.

I know how much he loves me, I can tell by the way he looks at me that he's grateful for every moment he has with me and I feel the same way too... So although we've hit some rough patches along the way, I can't wait to marry him & have his children. I want to grow old with him and from the bottom of my heart I know he wants the same. He's amazing, smart and fun... He's everything I could ask for in a man. Even my friends tell me that they can feel the love between us when they're around. I'm bitchy, and I pick at little things, but lately, being around my cousins and best friends, I realize just how lucky I am. He doesn't run off the bars all the time, he doesn't disrespect me, he never ever says mean things to me, and he's just wonderful! He might not be perfect, but he sure is close! :)

♥

Sad

I don't know if you've ever felt like you wanted to sleep for a thousand years, or just not exist, or just not be aware that you do exist, or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.

Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Well that's how I feel right now...I feel like I'm facing everything myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile...I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain. Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again. So when life gets tough you can just play pretend. I wanna go back to when your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed. When Disney World was the best place to be. Where people didn't change and your friends were the same and every time you were sad or you had a bad day, you could just run to mom and it would all be okay. I wanna go back to no hurt and no pain. Just laughter..When everyone always lives happily ever after.

I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any more of me left. Everything that ever cause a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more. Teardrops slowly fall from my eyes as I look to the sky, and I question how come life keeps passing me right on by. I just wonder why I can't escape, is this my fate?

Q.

She says she doesn't care, but her eyes tell a different story.
Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am...isn't me.

To tell you the truth, I've just been avoiding everything.

Don't say you know me, when I don't even know myself.

I think I'm afraid of being happy because everytime I'm happy, something bad always happens.

I know God wouldn't give me anything I can't handle, I just wish god didn't trust me so much.
When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.

There is only one rain cloud in the sky...and it's raining on me. Somehow I'm not surprised. I wake up and think dreams are real. I sleep so I don't have to feel.

I don't deserve you...I never did.
Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.
No matter what, no matter who, no matter what I do, somebody hates me.

I didn't want to admit it. It was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry.
I've learned it takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it.
Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.
Why can't you just love me for who I am?
When I cry at night, the only thing I can think to myself is...how can I seem so perfectly fine in the morning.

Why do I smile like nothing is wrong? And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay?Have you ever lived my life, have you ever spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't, then tell me why you judge me like you do.
Every morning you get up and put on a fake smile...but what if one morning you didn't? Would anyone notice?

..

I got nothing to do right now. Im just waiting for him to text me up, he's away for a while.

Dear You,
Im madly inlove with you and dont you know that?
You're different now, I can see it from the way you treat me..
The way you texted me, but still I dont care and deep inside me,
Im slowly breaking..
Ive tried not to think negative about you and all that..
Cause I dont wanna lose you, I dont wanna end up being hurt..
Im giving you all my trust but this is what I got..
I just cant explain about your feelings on me anymore..
Who am I to you? :')

Would you just listen?

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.
The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,
I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget, A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.

You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so,
After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,
You and I had something special and that will never change,
Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,
I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.

8Apr

Rafi is 13 and I just turned 16 last year. Mom said we look so much alike. I couldnt decide if that was a compliment or not. I guess its true. Rafi and I are both tall and plumpy like dad :P Everyone says we have serious face. We may look alike but we're really not that similar. Im alot more patient than he is. A lot more sensible. Probably because Im older and because Im a girl.

Camping

Hey! Its been a while. I miss blogging :(
On 18, 19, 20 March ada camping held by Pandu Puteri. I went there jua for camp at Bandar.
First day was just okay. Altogether yang ikut camping from our school is 4 people.
Then disana divided into groups lagi with other students from other schools.
It sucks to know that Im in a group with this 8 students err I cant recall. Drama queen berabis.
Im the only one yang dari sekulah smpw. Lucky for Qaah and Fithri cause they'r in a same group except for me and Saf.

Lets talk about the foods first. Its delicious but very limited. We can only ambil seputung saja ayam and honestly its not enough for me :p
Then we have to wait and que memanjang lagi. Forget to mention, that there's 200 plus students that attend the camp so yeah. Yknow I dont like waiting -.-'
Second, toilet. I hate-dirty-toilet. We were only given roughly 5 minutes to hit the shower and get all ourself dress up. Can you imagine that? :s Bersihkan toilet will take about 1 minute then buka baju and all that for 2. Shower and dress berapa minute? Seeeeeeee.
Next is time. We gotta be punctual lah apa. Exhausting banar. Then ada this one time that we have to carry all our bags and stuffs to the field, so barat. After that ironing our clothes sampai kelaie ani wah, yata we have to be fast. Payah urang inda penyabar. We got a lot of activities there and one of them is menari Tarian Asli.

Our group won in the first place :p wuhuu, we called it apani, this joget something. I guess Joget si baju putih.
Its fun jualah so lets just skip this part. Just wanna let you know that our group won :p *Sekadar
Sleep is very important for me. Seriously or else I will end up having a major headache if I got less sleep.
Unlucky for me, I cant sleep for the whole night masa first day tu. Kami tidur bawah flat and on the ground!
Sakit badan and very uncomfortable :s
I used tp check on my facebook and twitter before Im headed to sleep but our phone was kept by the teachers. Boooring
Second day, I cant wait to go home. And this second night barutah sleep well. Sebab I got the chance to sleep with my girls :p and we woke up at 5. Aher aah cause usually at 3. Hehee
So pendekkan cerita, masa last day tu cikgu zatul yang pick us 4 from the camp and send us home. I really had fun with them all and that camping is gonna be the first and the last! :D :D

What

Good morning people. Aaah, my head is spinning right now and Im so not in an accurate mood.
Tomorrow's exam is going to beeeeee, err I cant recall -.-
My timetable is missing :( and I havnt revise a thing!
I dont wanna be like past few years that I almost faint because of those
last minute revisions.
It really made a huge impact to my brain :s  
My body needs sleep but my mind is in OVERLOAD!
Its just that, I dont feel like revising today plus, Im still not feeling very-well.
I dont have any idea about what else to say.
So I guess I got to go now.
Catch me up on my next post.

Karma : 28.13

Art

Done by me.
Ive drawn my own hentai and I know it sucks but nvm. Its my first try anyway.
Will come back with more :D

I just wanna have fun :{D

Hahaha! Me and tummy ♥

Chris Medina

First of all, sorry for my bad english.

So here we go. Chris Medina, Im not sure how old he is but probably he's a wonderful singer.
A good looking person from the inside and out. And he's such an amazing guy.
He's a kind of guy that every girl wanted to be with.
How I wished, there was still a guy like him left in this world.
Yea, maybe there are but just a few of them :)
The reason why Im posting this is to tell the world, knowing him was such a blessed
although he didnt know that I am even exist.
He have touched millions people heart with his stories included me
and me myself are going to makesure that he's gonna be famous than the winner of American Idol!
Sorry for being too emotional.
Anyway. Chris Medina have made a single song called
'What are words' After hearing them in youtube,
I cried so good and raped the replay button about hundred times!
You gotta hear them people.
His song tell it all.
Julie should be proud for having a real man with beautiful heart like Chris as a partner in life.
She was involve in an accident and she was beautiful before but now things have changed.
But dont worry Julie, Chris will always be along the journey with you :')
I will keep my angel close -Chris Medina

Chris, you're in my pray. I love you! ♥

:)

I love ♥

Bobby Joseph

Nestum

Swimming

The Narrative

Cats

Stephen Jerzak

Tv

American Idol

Cady Groves

Youtube

Ipod Touch

Joey Diamond

Chanel 711

T- Shirt

Junior Masterchef

English

Alternative Rock

Guitar

Chase Boy

Girlfriends

Adventure

Bruno Mars

Mall Gadong

True Love

Teddy bear

Just for laugh

Party

Family

Mee Sedap

A day to remember

Facebook

Conversations

Jokes

Rain

Bokeh

SpongeBobSquarePants

Gred A

Sing

Quotes

Cinema

Ice Cream

Cycling..

Respect

D90

Mama ♥

Starbucks

Freedom

Gentlement

Indonesian Love Movies

Kentucky Fried Chicken

Blog ♥  :)

S 0.2

Avoid thinking of few things you dont get from god after praying. Instead, think of all those countless beautiful things that god gave you without even asking.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.

Sometimes you gotta quit thinking so much. If it feels right, it probably is. So just go with it.

A lot of people walk in and out of my life, but you're one of the only ones I ever really wanted to stick around.

I was praying that you and me might end up together.

No one ever gets tired of loving but everyone gets tired of waiting, assuming, hearing promises saying sorry and all the hurting.

I'd prefer you offline, instead of seeing you online and you're not talking to me.

If you start to miss me, remember that I didnt walk away. You let me go.

If I were to take anything from you without getting noticed, I'd take all the loneliness in your heart because I dont want a person like you to be hurt when you deserve the best life.

I'll love you till the sky falls down.

Heavy rain showers remind me of challenges in life. Never ask for a lighter rain, instead pray for a better umbrella.

Dont make her wait for you just because you know she will.

There's an answer you reach into your soul.

Im a good enough person to forgive you but not stupid enough to trust you.

Love me when I least deserve it because that is when I really need it.

If you knew how I felt, you'd understand why Im fucking angry at you, why I hate you so much right now.

Love your haters. They are your biggest fans. Why? Because they keep on wasting time just to watch your every wrong move.

Stop saying 'I wish' Start saying 'I will'

Sometimes it takes a good fall to really know where you stand.

Take a chance, you never know what might happen.

When writting the story of your life, dont let anyone else hold the pen.

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

I overthink everything.

Just dont give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love inspiration, I dont think you can go wrong.

The most sophisticated people I know -Inside they are all children.

My life has been filled with terrible misfortune, most of which never happened.

Best revenge? Smile, be happy, never let them know it hurt.


Saying 0.1

I wish I knew what was running in your mind, so I could understand why..

If you aint living on the edge, you're taking up way too much space.

There are a lot of people who call you by your name, but there is only one person who can make it sound so damn special.

Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears.

We're not that different at all :)

Something ends because there is something better lined up in the future.

You're young so shut up and enjoy life!

Just because she comes off strong, doesnt mean she didnt fall asleep crying, and even though she acts like nothings wrong, maybe she's just really good at lying.

You said Hello, inside Im screaming I love you

I hate myself for still waiting for you.

Move on, its just a chapter in the past. But dont close the book, just turn the page.

When you like a guy, every girl that talks to him is a slut.

Trust is like a paper, once its crumpled, it cant be perfect again.

Dont be afraid to fail. be afraid not to try.

My head says "who cares?" But then my heart whispered "You do, stupid"

I wish I could forget you like I forget everything Ive studied seconds before an exam.

A day spent with friends are always a day well spent :)

Sometimes, the best way to stay close to someone you love is by being just a friend.

The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was and the present worse than it is.

We spend our lives telling ourselves that everything happens for a reason when in reality, its just that we give reasons for everything that happens.

"You really love him, do you?" No name was mentioned but suddenly someone came into your mind.

Everyone has someone in their life that keeps them looking forward to another day.

You think you want to die but in reality, you just want to be saved.

♥

Indonesian version

"Mereka semua itu tau apa si tentang kita?

 Bahagia itu kita yang ciptain, bukan mereka..

Kita akan selalu berdua dan enggak ada yang akan pernah misahin kita.

Kita punya cara kita sendiri, dan kita punya dunia kita sendiri.."

Dulu, aku pernah punya cowok.. Aku pernah punya cinta..

Cinta yang aku rasa kayak dunia ini milik aku ama dia aja..

Tapi itu semua dulu.. Kita enggak bersama lagi, sekarang kita pisah..

Kita gak bersatu kayak dulu lagi.

Aku juga gak pasti kenapa, apa yang aku tau..

Dia sekarang udah punya cewek baru..

Jujur aku sakit, aku cemburu..

Tapi aku akan coba bertahan sekuat yang aku bisa..

Aku masih ingat kok..

Dia pernah bilang ama aku, "Sayang, aku gak akan pernah ninggalin kamu..

Sabar ya sayang, suatu hari nanti aku pasti bisa bikin kamu bahagia.."

Aku percaya..

Dulu aku bahagia ama dia, aku menerimanya apa adanya..

Sekarang udah beda..

Aku udah gak bisa buat itu semua..

Tiada lagi tawanya, senyumannya..

Untuk hapus semua sepi dihati aku..

Harapan cuman tinggal mimpi..

Ninggalin semua cerita tentang kita..

Aku cuman mau satu hal aja..

Aku pengen banget liat dia bahagia..

Kerna kebahagiannya adalah kebahagiaanku....

  ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

16Feb

                              

                                          Say hello to

my new boyfriend!

                                Im using the apple iPod touch right now. Heheh :P

Wan bought it for me.

Thanks Wan :)

Im getting used to it although

 I'm so pissed off about using it from

the first time he gave it to me.

I found it hard since it's a touchscreen so yeah :)

Now testing saja dulu, hehe..

Just now di sekulah,

I went home early cause my leg's hurt so bad.

But Im so happy that

Ive skipped my science and afternoon class.

Haha, how cool is that? :P 

Im currently layin down, watching tv and relaxing..

So I guess that's all for now.

Im not going to go to school tomorrow bdway :)

Gotta go, byeeee!

Peace and love ♥

     ♥♥

Hello February

Goodbye January.
Hello February.
I broke-up again, with him and I cried so bad.
The reason why he's leaving me is because he cant be a right person for me,
he got a family problems and all that but that is what he have said to me before.
And now, the right moment comes, now that Ive found out he's with someone else.
Well I can just say, he's leaving me for other girl that he wanted to be with. Allah maha adil.
I hate when people lied at me, so much! :)
I wonder, why he didnt just tell me the truth.
Dude, its better hurt to know whats right than to be lied and didnt know whats going on.
I am so pissed off, probably dissapointed but thats okay. Who careeeees mahn. Who cares?
So here I am, turning on a new page, a new book with a new story to finish :)
Im not done here and Im gonna move on.

My new year resolution in 2011 is to study more hard, try to concentrate and focus in class on every lesson. To submit works on time. Less entertainment and more on study :)

Dont ever tell that Ive changed, the truth is Ive just found myself so please try to accept me for who I am.
Peace and love.  :) :)

Help!

Im inlove with a boy. Im not sure how much longer I can go on without him :(

Im inlove with a boy who doesnt know I am alive.

Question: I think my boyfriend is cheating on me, but he denies it. How can I tell whether or not he's lying?

Answer: If he's cheating, he'll be exhibiting at least a few of the following behaviours:

Spends more and more Saturday nights with the guys.
Gets cellphone calls while he's with you that he doesnt answer after checking the caller ID
Suddently starts carring about his hair/wardrobe
Accuses you of cheating on him (guilt)
Ask weird seemingly random questions like 'Do you think its possible to love two people at the same time?'
Gets a new job or has to work all the time
And more.. ♥

Most importantly of all, if you suspect he might be cheating, he probably is. Trust your gut. Unless you're one of those stupid insecure girls who always thinks her boyfriend is cheating on her, even when he isnt, in which case, get a grip. Annie

Random

So here we go, I hate my brother! He keeps telling me that everything
I like is evil, and that I shouldnt like this or that
because when I die, I will go to hell. He thinks liking rock music,
fantasy books and watching Mtv is sinful.
He goes on and on about how the musics, books and people I like are evil.
I respect what he likes and I think he should
respect what I like too!

Tell your brother to cool it. You aren't going to hell. You're already in it. Its called HIGH SCHOOL ♥

Its funny how you like guys who are taken. You know, guys who already have girlfriend. You flirt with them until they dump whoever they're dating and then, as soon as the guys are available, you start not to love them anymore. What is up with this?

Refazawanah.blogspot.com :)

Quiz planet

What emotions are you hidding?
You are hiding emotional pain or sadness... Most likely from a broken heart.
Don't worry, think positive and remember, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel!

How old are you mentally?
40 years old! You are so calm and know heaps!! Some people call you boring but when you want to you can be so much fun!! You tend to be the one that people go to for advise and you are the mother/father of the group people love you "pairentness"!!

A positive and negative thing about you.
Normal and easily bored. Youre an average girl in a so called (by you) boring environment.
Unless something good and drama related youre always bored. But have no fear.... Theres always facebook to entertain you.

What is your soul animal?
Leopard. You are a calm person, when stuff happens your okay with it, you also like to lounge but have coolness and power in you. You have slynees and intelligents to really help you out with your life and you are usually very lucky. Let the gifts of a leopard help you out through life.

Why are you still single?
This guy really likes you! just wait another few more days and he will ask you out!

What kind of girl are you?
The optimistic one. You are so happy and see the bright side in everything and everyone.
That's why everyone flocks to you.

What makes you beautiful?
Your confidence and smile! :)

What is your talent?
Comedian. Life's just a joke to you! You love to kid around with your friends,
scare people to death, and tell your jokes at group gatherings. Your great in uncomfortable moments, by breaking them with your antics. Laugh your way up life's ladder!

Hurt

I cant keep pretending anymore..

And now, I give up on you, not because I dont care..

Its because you dont :')

Its not the

Goodbye

that hurts, but the

Flashbacks

that follow..

Dear Pillow, sorry for all the tears

Dear Heart, sorry for all the damage

I cant think of anybody else who I hate to miss

as much as I hate missing you :(

Im sick and tired of trying to hide

the mess that I am.

It hurts that you dont even try

You told me, you loved me..

Its not the silence that seems to kill us

but the words left unspoken..

Im not sure what scares me more,

that you will never start loving me or

that I will never stop

loving you :(

♥