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She says she doesn't care, but her eyes tell a different story.
Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am...isn't me.

To tell you the truth, I've just been avoiding everything.

Don't say you know me, when I don't even know myself.

I think I'm afraid of being happy because everytime I'm happy, something bad always happens.

I know God wouldn't give me anything I can't handle, I just wish god didn't trust me so much.
When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.

There is only one rain cloud in the sky...and it's raining on me. Somehow I'm not surprised. I wake up and think dreams are real. I sleep so I don't have to feel.

I don't deserve you...I never did.
Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.
No matter what, no matter who, no matter what I do, somebody hates me.

I didn't want to admit it. It was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry.
I've learned it takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it.
Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.
Why can't you just love me for who I am?
When I cry at night, the only thing I can think to myself is...how can I seem so perfectly fine in the morning.

Why do I smile like nothing is wrong? And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay?Have you ever lived my life, have you ever spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't, then tell me why you judge me like you do.
Every morning you get up and put on a fake smile...but what if one morning you didn't? Would anyone notice?